Poems from an up and down week....by Rosemary

This week has been a bit up and down, and the downs were just about as low as they get, to the point of feeling like giving up. Yet through the depression, weariness and tears God still keeps his hand on me. When I can't 'see' him through the gloom and my mind plays tricks on my logic and reason, then His 'Rod and Staff' still comfort me. When all I can do is cry out, his hand is there to strengthen me and help me carry on. The weariness doesn't necessarily vanish, but I am not alone.

The following are two poems from this week's struggle. They may be a bit rough around the edges, but maybe they will resonate and hopefully encourage someone else, somewhere, sometime, somehow.

Waves

Waves of despair wash over me

I am so close, so close to giving up

Logic and sense fight through the darkness

Only to be washed away in helplessness

Oh Lord, I cry out to you

I cannot carry on

I long so much for quick escape

From this ache deep in my heart

Weariness and sadness leak from my eyes

Anger and frustration too

As I face my weakness once again

Lord I need some light from you

I need your help so much my God

Don’t let go through all my gloom

Stay always ever at my side

Change the waves to those of mercy soon.

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Longing

Oh to see your beauty Lord

To recognise your face

To understand and hear your voice

To frolic in your grace

Oh Lord, to walk close by your side

To feel your presence near

And to experience your love

Free from all doubts and fears

I long to know you’re really here

Your evidence to show

So others see and sense and hear

And long to know you too